Feeling freer again

I wasn’t eating properly, I wasn’t coping, shouting at people, wasn’t looking after myself properly. I was withdrawn, seeing people as enemies, was really going out and not very confident.

I felt isolated, lonely and depressed – I had no one to talk to or who would listen to me confidentially about things that I was going through. I had no one to help me to deal with the difficult situations I was in. I was only offered CBT, which was rubbish. No one was offering me different strategies, to help me to look at things in different ways.

I found out about TT+ sessions through Life in Community and I referred myself for support as I wanted to achieve some form of normality.

I’ve been given coping strategies and homework on how to deal with different things on my own. On how best to work on myself, with being by myself. I wanted something to focus on; the positive rather than the negativity in my life. These sessions are useful and have unravelled some of the feelings I had forgotten about, things that I have bottled up over years. 

My counsellor is trying to get me to write things down, to help me to forgive, as forgiveness brings success, but this is hard as I’ve been through so much. But I am starting to write things down.

It’s helped me to start my creativity and given me a purpose and how to look after myself better. Everything is starting to fit into place a little better, although things are difficult at the moment. I think I need additional sessions, to assist in dealing with all these memories. To help me to forgive and set myself free.

I’m feeling freer now. It is giving me a purpose and I am treating myself better, rather than treating myself badly. It’s helped to improve my self-worth and given some level of motivation, bringing some meaning and a bit of joy and happiness. I’d recommend the counselling to others to do the same.

Next I want to complete my course with my therapist and achieve my forgiveness goal and not let others push me down and to be able to walk my own course in life. Words can’t describe how grateful I am for my therapist saving my life and preventing me from self-destructing – she has helped me to keep going.